Late Night Bonding

At 2:50am my son awoke to let me know he was hungry. Though having my sleep interrupted night after night isn't always appealing, there is comfort in knowing that my son wants me. In the book "The Womanly Art of Breastfeeding" the authors describe how breastfeeding is more that just about the physical food but also feeding your child emotionally. A few nights ago Austin looked at me, smiling and cooing. What joy this brought to my heart, feeding MY soul!
Today I started my first day of work (I'm eating lunch while I type this) and though spending the day at work is tiring when I'm also getting up at night, I feel torn in needing to give some of the feeding over to my Hubby so I get get more sleep. The late night feedings are the one thing right now that Austin and I share, mommy and son time. This is the joy that sustains me each day and night...even when he spits up and pees through his outfit at 3:00am.
Each new day makes me feel more and more like a mother. And though I may never feel adequate to call myself that, I will cherish this gift God has bestowed upon my husband and I.